Transition Update 5 – Day 230: A New Year

Okay, so there’s been a bit of a lack of updates in the last two and a half months, but hey, better late than never! It was mostly due to feeling down for a number of reasons, and I’d rather not do an all gloomy update. The good news is that you finally get to see me out of guy-mode! I’m about seven and a half months in since starting hormones in late May.

I’ve taken some big steps in the last couple of months. It took me all the way until Thanksgiving to finally feel comfortable enough to show my parents how I look like this. They’ve known since before I started hormones, but I’ve always been in guy-mode around them until then. I went out in public for the first time soon after, where I went shopping with my sister in Portsmouth. It went well, and no one called me out (or at least said anything to me about it). There was even a time a few months ago where I was out at a restaurant with a friend, and while I was gone the waiter had to ask my friend which gender I was, even though I was completely in guy mode.

I’m starting to feel a bit better as I start to look a bit better. That’s not to say it’s been all good. There’s been a lot of doubt that I’ve had, having no faith that I could do this, and considering on giving up along the way. My emotions have been swinging much more than I’m used to, because the hormones give me higher highs and lower lows. It’ll probably take some time for me to get acclimated to the mental changes. There have been more changes where I’ve been thinking in more female ways than before, but I’ll get into that in a future update.

So, I hope things will start to get better as I go more into this on a part time basis. It’s easier to start part time in the winter when I can bundle up more. I’ll try to do more frequent updates too. Happy 2016 everyone!